December 2009
2 posts
so it’s my birthday in a week … why am i not excited?
November 2009
8 posts
Stop smoking...
jlote:
…i won’t bury my friends.
i’m working on it. haha
sched.
so dr. campbell yelled at mikulski and so did mascavage. i love them. he hugged me and said everything will be okay. im pretty sure we’re getting married. no big.
chemical research, chemical seminar, physics 2, pchem 1, yoga, & independent study with Dr. Campbell or Advanced Organic.
funfunfunfun
dear arcadia, i hate you, love kim
my advisor told me i wasn’t getting into graduate school. he said i should have taken pchem and been a BS major. HOWEVER, sir, you have NEVER had time to meet with me before let alone GUIDE me in the right direction of life. i planned all of my classes. all my reqs are done. gen eds done. pre-reqs for my grad program done. nowwwww you want me to take up 3 extra classes that i don’t...
guy fawkes
in uni stiriling the kids just burnt a dummy at the stake and ate candied apples. i miss europe.
he said i love you. i hope he means it.
this whole acting like a girl thing is killing me. people don’t intimidate me. normally im a confident person. but i feel vulnerable and terrified … somehow i can’t walk away.
October 2009
13 posts
As I'm swimming through the stereo I'm writing you...
marcmance:
Spinning anything Jack’s Mannequin, because they are coming to Rutgers tomorrow, and I am mad excited for it. Anyone else going?
I am soo jealous right now!!!!
everything in my life is a mess. i need to get on...
all along we've been a mess...
okay ready to get emo for a bit? it’s not even that i’m sad. because i’m not … anymore. i’m just angry. at the world. i’m angry that my mother can’t act like a mother. she never has, never will. throughout andrew’s and my shitty lives i have raised him, comforted him, listened to him … everything. she didn’t want andrew to move back in. i...
ballad of a thin man - b.d.
this polymers exam is the hardest thing i’ve encountered in a while. =( there is definitely a glow frisbee flying around the courtyard below me. i just cut my hair today. none of these thoughts are connected. my mind is a mess. and im jittery from coffee. =)
you kind of wasted my precious time, but don't...
today was so excellent. andrew called at 730am. he said he’s coming home because alex broke up with him. i feel bad that he’s miserable but im so happy he’s coming home =) i havent seen him in foreverrr or heard from him. last i heard he had totaled his car, got fired, wasn’t graduating, got 20,000.00 and spent it in a week. he ran away to live with his girlfriend. and now...
marcmance:
theoisjonesing:
Cartel - The...
keep quiet
Senior year is really testing me. I’m finding how far I can push my limits and exactly how much motivation I truly have. As I lay here wide awake Ilook back and wonder if I missed anything in life. It’s flying by and I want to be able to look back on good memories. Sometimes I just brush good things off. It seems like karma’s doing her job.Sometimes I should just keep my mouth...
school mode
I finally finished a massive project last night. Feeling so productive and accomplished right now. I have two more exams this week, hoping I pass biochem. Campbell is a shady character. Everyone fails but numbers don’t mean anything to him. =/ I still love him though. I’m in between class and meetings right now. Senior year is killing me. This whole 4 hours of sleep a night isn’t...
Last night I took the GREs what an awful experience. I was a mere 100 points away from my goal. Sooo frustrating I can’t even begin to explain. I drove from Philly straight to the testing center and then just went to Gabs house. We drove around, ate, and then went to our favorite spot. She talked about home and it makes me miss jersey even more. I hate not being able to see her all the time...
distress call, code word is i wanna live ... he... →
Somethin'...
jlote:
filled up my heart with nothin’, someone told me not to cry. But now that I’m older, my heart’s colder, and I can see that it’s a lie.
the arcade fire … =/
my friends are angels
gabriella basile, joe park, matt silva i would die without you <3
if i was normal i'd be crying.
“Zach”: theres an entire movement in this world called yellow fever…and its right up your ally so i don’t see how your not getting hit up like a turkey on thanksgiving
this kid. all he does is make me feel like shit by telling me what a horrible person i am and telling me the worst event of my life was my fucking fault. thank you for confirming all my fears. the only...
September 2009
23 posts
wow.
i was seriously just asked to date someone via facebook chat. because …”i’m hotter than cute” and “i’m too smart for a hot girl” wtf. you don’t even know me (one of the rules for life lmao). and im pretty sure i’d never date you anyway. i love that people i DON’T want liking me do and the one person i wish would doesn’t … or...
say what you mean and mean what you say ...
im back in the library waiting for my chem sem class. i just had to pick a topic to do my “lit paper” on. im not sure if we have to defend this one or not, but the topic is complete bullshit considering i did about a weeks worth of research in half an hour. Lycorine alkaloids and their anti tumor properties based on structure and mechanisms. so cool i can’t even take it.
jenna...
immune system, please work ...
i feel really sick again. my throat feels like it’s on fire and my ears are ringinggggg. i guess it’s back to the health center tomorrow. eff. so much work to do. not enough time. last night i SWORE i was going to bed early. then i wound up tokboxing/chatting with josh for awhile. which pushed back my hw. well … you get it. it was worth it though =) okay i promiseee ill do work...
start off the week...
Giants shut out tampa, jets beat the titans, and eagles killed it. It’s going to be a good week. I somehow got out of work to go to the Jets game, that matt gave away his tickets for!!! =( now I’m in philly chillin with B and the boys. they’re all watching the effing seahawks v. Bears game instead of the steelers. =/ queersss.
reunions
today was fantastic. woke up to a cute face =). drove home to have lunch with my trloves at ABC. went to a random fair in downtown TR with matt. worked with some of my favorites. came home to more of my favorites [jmay and matt] to watch cold mountain, which they’ve never seen/heard of!!!! so effing good. im pretty sure im the only one who likes that movie. but the soundtrack is beautiful if...
:D
Last night Alex, Chet, and Josh took me out to bowl for the first time since I was REALLY little. I was so terribly awful, but I love them and of course they were complete angels, putting up with me.
Now I’m out to lunch with my trloves and then hanging out with Matt around TR before workk. Jessy and Gab aree coming over later for a girls night and Matt will probably joinnn. I love new...
the morning after ...
id love to say “im not that girl, whose life is filled with drama… the one that doesn’t over react … that girl who sets herself up to be crushed and then cries when it happens…” but that’s not true. i say what i mean and i mean what i say. i get angry/sad all the effing time over stupid things. my life is like a soap opera. i put myself out there and then...
geekkk 8D
im blogging from the library of school waiting to tutor some kids in chem (orgo and quant) because i’m super cool like that! then i get to go proctor a test, do more work study, and finish my day with meetings. but i should smile because today is thursday and the possibilities are endless. looking forward adventures in philly tonight with chau andddd it’s zack’s birthday!!! good...
the story of my life.
gbas:
Jaded: adjective : made dull, apathetic, or cynical by experience
gab, how can you hate this ?! if you had to describe us in one word other than bitch, it’d be jaded. i just embrace it.
monuments.
the monuments at night are the prettiest thing i’ve ever seen. minus the two hour detoured walk. =)
the weekend ended with only one cut one bruise. excellent :D
so farr...
highlights from last night:
tom used the weirdest pick up lines on me that i’ve ever heard. tried to crawl into bed with me and say the blanket was an invisible barrier.
uni cops came. hid in a closet suspended like a ninja for 10 minutes. so scary. mike says im anne frank, champ of hide and seek.
rode without seatbelts in the backseat of the car. Pineapple is the code word for...
Cryptic.
gbas:
Seeing as how Tumblr has made it a chore to make your blog private - I will sometimes have to make cryptic blog posts.
On another note - I have off all day today! So excited! By off I mean free of my disgusting part time job and school. I have a bunch of other shit to do today. I think I’ll go over Anna’s house when she gets off work because all my friends are either away or have better...
yay i made it.
thank god i made it through the week. one more exam. one lecture. and i’m busting the fuck out of here :D roadtrip with the boys, i missed them terribly. dear jesus, don’t let us die <3
:D
okay maybe life’s looking up :DD
fail.
arcadia says i owe them money, but they forgot about my grants and other scholarships for being an “honors science major”. bullshit bullshit bullshit. oh yea valerie is marrying the worst man in the universe a year from now. i have a year to move out of my house and start my own life. fucking fantastic. i quit my job because apparently it’s my fault for going away to school. im...
okay...
i promise i’ll be in a better mood today and smile more. :D matt told me racist jokes this morning to make me laugh, so i think it’s going to be a good day. ::fingers crossed::
“im through choking and suffocating on alter egos and alter motives, which weigh...”
bitchfest.
im in the weirdest fucking mood ever. i can’t sleep, but i want to just so the day will end. i have a lot of work to do, but i don’t do it because im overwhelmed. the yearbook still isn’t fucking finished. i have two exams this week and one next week. my research starts tomorrow and i’m not prepared. i have to throw a resume and a career goals list for my senior sem. class...
“I existed because I dreamed and well, I dream no more”
“don’t think twice it’s alright- Bob Dylan”
April 2009
14 posts
so i have a twitter. i’ve been sucked in. tool? i know.
“Peace is no violence, no frustration, no fear,”
– ~ John Lennon
crisis in darfur.
this is a media player from amnesty international’s Instant Karma project.
save darfur.
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